novelden Chapter 194 I Can't Go Crazy Yet
Chapter 194 I Can't Go Crazy Yet
As Ye Ling grew up, she saw through far too many things, and she became increasingly indifferent, timid, and silent.
Ye Ling knew that the information gap she was behind was difficult to bridge, so she passively chose to socialize.
But no one taught her. Many of her memories are from school, and her behavior is influenced by her teachers and classmates. No one systematically taught her what to do or what to say when she encounters a problem.
She could only search online and read relevant books, but accumulating knowledge takes time and practice requires experience, so she could only explore step by step.
Along the way, she offended many people because she couldn't change her way of speaking. But she refused to accept it and kept trying to reflect on herself and observe. Finally, she slowly realized that her way of speaking the truth could make people uncomfortable and also exposed many of her blind spots in knowledge, her narrow-mindedness, and her shallow understanding.
Unable to change her shortcomings immediately, she came up with a solution: since she had limited access to information and a narrow social circle, she would specifically seek out and befriend people with extensive networks. Since she wasn't good at much else, she was good at praising people and providing emotional value, which was also an advantage.
Ye Ling's social circle wasn't wide during university, but it was excellent. She had a vast network of friends both on and off campus who were adept at spreading rumors; she also had friends who got along well with professors and could provide accurate information on campus in advance; and she had friends who loved to travel, were skilled at diplomacy, and would take Ye Ling to all sorts of places and events, providing introductions and explanations in private, and patiently explaining anything Ye Ling didn't understand...
In short, it's all pretty much the same. Ye Ling has learned a lot and is able to handle many things independently. She has also learned to consider all factors and make the best choice.
Gradually, she stopped being afraid of socializing, stopped fearing that her ignorance would embarrass her, and she also came to understand many things.
The world is vast, and there are all kinds of people. But suffering is always there, and everyone must face their own difficulties.
Some people are lucky, having been educated by their families for decades, which gives them the confidence to face difficulties and even allows them to easily solve problems through their parents' connections. They know that if they can't solve a problem on their own, their parents will be there to back them up.
For children from ordinary families like Ye Ling, it's not so easy. The easiest path is paved with thorns and is very painful. They need to walk out and climb up on their own to have a chance to meet them.
Ye Ling had complained about the unfairness, but in the end, all that was left was helplessness and confusion.
When all of this was over, Ye Ling understood that the choice was always hers, and opportunities would eventually appear reasonably after the choice was made.
She understood. The thorny path she was walking was the same path taken by parents who had the choice to raise their children. The difference was that they were ahead of her, and she was behind them. She hadn't even seen their backs yet; she had only seen the steps they had built to support their children.
The cause and effect are difficult to see through, which is why there are lovesick men and women, jealousy, injustice, fear, and dread... In the end, they become disgusted and do evil.
But in the end, they rotted in the mud, unable to climb out, unable to break free, and finally watched helplessly as they decayed and stinked.
It's not that they don't know or understand; they're just fearful and apprehensive. They're afraid to face difficulties, afraid of failure and being ridiculed. That's why they deceive themselves by trying to make things difficult for others, eagerly passing the problem on to others to establish a novel and unique image, thereby generating a unique sense of superiority, and slowly getting lost in it.
Did they not know it was wrong? No, they knew, even clearly understood, but they had to do it, otherwise their barren souls would shatter, their breathless hearts would tremble, they would eventually doubt themselves without limits, and go mad, leaving behind only their burning bodies and broken, wandering souls.
We are all ordinary people, with family education that is so ordinary that it is almost useless, and school education that is too avant-garde and impractical. We all have education but cannot solve the problems at hand and the messy life.
Compared to all of this, compared to countless failures, people would rather choose to give up, make things difficult for others, and question and blame others, than reflect on themselves.
Ye Ling had also experienced and knew all of this. Fortunately, she came to her senses and, through continuous learning and growth, constantly questioned and sought answers, and constantly reflected on cause and effect. With each improvement in her thinking, she finally saw the truth hidden beneath the surface.