novelden Chapter 140 No one can be selfless
Chapter 140 No one can be selfless
[The Human World, Mo Xiao's Home]
Ever since that day when Feng Yinsha betrayed him, Mo Xiao had been feeling rather down.
She just couldn't understand. Although those days of relying on each other in the hospital were several years ago, and the feelings of sympathy for each other during the hardships they went through were long gone... did Feng Yinsha really not care about her at all?
They were chatting happily together before that, weren't they?
But now, without Anling's company, and unable to tell her parents or the housekeeper about all this—adults' views and children's views are always very different—Mo Xiao felt extremely distressed.
Even the butler who had been taking care of her noticed it.
"Miss, is something bothering you?" Seeing that Mo Xiao had been looking so depressed, the butler couldn't help but ask.
"It's not exactly a worry, it's just that there are some things I can't figure out." Although Mo Xiao was eating, her expression remained blank, clearly indicating that she was not paying attention.
"Actually, many things aren't that complicated." The butler affectionately ruffled Mo Xiao's short hair. "The one who tied the knot must untie it. If someone is bothering you, go find them and ask them to understand. If something is bothering you, try to think about it from a different perspective..."
"I understand!" Mo Xiao replied absentmindedly, but she already had her own thoughts in mind.
Since she couldn't understand Feng Yinsha's intentions or why he was so ruthless, she decided to ask him for his reasons instead of wasting her own time.
So, after school that evening, Mo Xiao had the driver take her directly to Feng Yinsha's house, which she remembered.
(Presumably, Feng Yinsha's family doesn't have the money to move to a new house...)
However, Feng Yinsha was still surprised by Mo Xiao's arrival: "Xiao Xiao, what brings you here?"
"Can't I just come and see you?" After all that had happened, Mo Xiao was much more at ease. After all, it wasn't her who felt guilty when they met now.
"No, no, come in." Feng Yinsha opened the door and let Mo Xiao into the house.
“…Okay.” The hallway was a public area, not a convenient place to talk, so Mo Xiao accepted Feng Yinsha’s invitation without saying much.
In the living room, Mo Xiao and Feng Yinsha sat facing each other on the sofa, each drinking tea in silence.
Mo Xiao didn't know where to begin asking questions, while Feng Yinsha didn't know how to talk to Mo Xiao.
He was the one who first decided to abandon his feelings and pursue everything he wanted, although the ending was by no means very good.
“Yinsha…” Mo Xiao spoke first: “What was the reason you didn’t say that night?”
"..." Feng Yinsha didn't expect Mo Xiao to ask such a question so directly, and for a moment he didn't know how to respond: "Do my reasons still matter?"
"Am I important to you?" Mo Xiao's expression darkened. "Even though you know that doing this will ruin our friendship, you still don't care? You can't even come up with a decent reason?"
"No, no." Feng Yinsha was a little anxious when he saw Mo Xiao's expression. To be honest, he didn't want to lose the only friend he could call a friend.
"So what's your reason?" Mo Xiao didn't want to press her too hard, but she was also eager to know if Feng Yinsha had other reasons, as she had imagined.
“Xiaoxiao, sometimes I really envy you.” Feng Yinsha sighed, finally deciding not to hide it anymore: “Although we are in the same boat, we are still different, aren’t we? You have a warm, happy, and wealthy family, while I was destined for tragedy from birth.”
"A broken family, a childhood without happiness, and eyes destined never to face the sun... Why must my life be filled with so many tragedies?"
"My demands aren't that high, I just want a life like everyone else's. Is that so hard? Must something that others can easily have become my lifelong regret?"
“I have experienced despair, so when I see hope, I must seize it without hesitation, even if the decision may not be the right one, or it may be harmful to others and benefit myself. I have no other choice.”
"So, just to grasp at that sliver of hope, you deceived me and gave up on our relationship, is that it?"
Mo Xiao's voice was neither sad nor happy, but Feng Yinsha could detect a hint of sorrow in it.
Whether out of guilt or sadness, his face was somber as he said to Mo Xiao, word by word, "This is my reason. No one can be selfless, and I am no exception."
【to be continued…】
[TO BE CONTINUED…]