novelden Chapter 189 I am not guilty
Chapter 189 I am not guilty
Yan Xizhao quickly saw Song Chunlai's face. His expression was very rich, anger, confusion, relief and distress.
Song Chunlai performed a routine check on Yan Xizhao with a gloomy face. After confirming that Yan Xizhao's vital signs were completely stable, he turned around and left without saying a word to her.
Yan Xizhao got anxious and subconsciously raised his hand, only to realize later that he felt a sharp pain. It hurt, it really hurt!
Song Chunlai seemed to have turned around, but his eyes never left Yan Xizhao, and he hurried forward to check.
Yan Xizhao took the opportunity to point at the oxygen mask on her face with her intact finger. Song Chunlai rolled his eyes, but still took it off for her carefully.
Yan Xizhao couldn't wait to ask the first question after waking up.
"Have you taken your blockers?"
"Huh, now you think of caring about me? When you did something that hurt yourself, why didn't you think that I would be sad and hurt?"
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!"
Yan Xizhao finally understood the poverty of language, but she knew that if Song Chunlai was infected because of her, she would never feel at peace for the rest of her life, although she didn't know how long this life would last.
Song Chun saw what Yan Xizhao was thinking and sighed, "I am a professional infectious disease doctor. Protecting myself is my basic skill. Are you questioning my ability?"
"That's good……"
Yan Xizhao breathed a sigh of relief. Thinking about it now, she was really scared. Fortunately, it was Song Chunlai who came and understood her situation.
Then Yan Xizhao laughed at herself again. Who else would come except Song Chunlai? Who else would care about her life or death? If Song Chunlai hadn't called her, Yan Xizhao's body would probably have rotted and stank without anyone noticing.
Song Chunlai saw through it again and couldn't help but smile sadly. Of course he would go. Yan Xizhao would never understand how anxious and distressed he was when she left those so-called last words.
He would not know how terrified and desperate he was when he saw her soaked in blood.
She simply didn't understand what kind of feelings he had for her over the years.
"If you really want to die so badly, why don't you just stab the aorta, cleanly and easily, and end it all once and for all?"
This was the first time Yan Xizhao had seen Song Chunlai like this. In her impression, he was always calm and gentle. How could he have such a sharp side? It seemed that he was really stimulated by her.
"I... I really don't have the strength anymore, or maybe deep down in my heart, I don't think death is a relief..."
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"Sister Xiaoyan, are you feeling better?"
Yan Xizhao turned his head and was surprised.
"Xiao Xin? Why are you in the hospital too?"
It turns out that the patient in the same room with Yan Xizhao is Xiaoxin?
Xiao Xin did not answer Yan Xizhao's question, but was wholeheartedly concerned about Yan Xizhao.
"Sister Xiaoyan, I saw your story on the Internet. I think what they said is wrong. They are prejudiced against us, so they can't see the facts clearly!"
"Then tell me, what is the truth?" Yan Xizhao smiled gently.
Xiao Xin said seriously, "The fact is, you were brave and courageous! You disregarded your own safety and risked your life to save those children!"
"Sister Xiaoyan, you are really brave! I really hope that I can become someone like you!"
Yan Xizhao looked at Xiaoxin's tender face full of determination and felt as if she had been healed, like a flower bud in the dark. Even a little sunshine would make her shine again.
Xiao Xin turned around, and her big eyes as clear as crystal fell expectantly on Yan Xizhao's face.
"Sister Xiaoyan, my mother said that no matter what difficulties we encounter, we must live bravely! Because only by living can we overcome difficulties and regain happiness. As time goes by, we will find that the previous difficulties are not worth mentioning at all!"
"Sister Xiaoyan, please stop doing stupid things. Let's work hard together and live well!"
Yan Xizhao's eyes were slightly red, and she smiled brightly, "Okay!"
"Sister Xiaoyan, you look so pretty when you smile, but I don't believe you. Let's make a pinky promise!"
"Sister, you can't move now. When you get better, I'll definitely make a pinky promise with you!"
But some things and some people, once missed, will never be seen again.
Xiaoxin was pushed into the ICU in the middle of the night and never came out again.
"How is this possible? Xiaoxin is only 20 years old. She is still so young and her body functions are at their best. Shouldn't she be able to survive with such an illness? How could she just die like this?"
Yan Xizhao couldn't accept it at all. The little girl who was by her side yesterday with smiling eyes and lively and vivid eyes just disappeared forever.
"Xiao Xin has had asthma since she was a child. She is weak to begin with and cannot do any exercise of a little intensity. This disease has made things even worse. Her body is like a paper-covered window that cannot withstand the slightest disturbance..."
"She has long understood it in her heart. Perhaps it is precisely because she knows that her life is short that she loves life more than others. She has been trying hard to persevere and live happily in her limited life. She has done it. This time... maybe she really can't hold on anymore..."
Speaking of this, Song Chunlai couldn't help choking up.
"I promised her a pinky promise..."
Before she knew it, Yan Xizhao was already in tears.
It's fate that plays tricks on us.
Yan Ximing clearly wanted to give up her life, but she survived; Xiaoxin wanted to live so much, but she was taken away.
At this moment, Yan Xizhao suddenly realized that insults, slander, and rumors were nothing compared to life and death. She was really stupid!
Although he did not hook up with Xiaoxin, Yan Xizhao must fulfill his promise to her!
She must work hard and live well! With Xiaoxin's share.
Since we have to live, we should live a more meaningful and valuable life. There is still a lot that Yan Xizhao can do...
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A reporter from the New Daily received an invitation. The AIDS patient who recently caused huge controversy on the Internet by fighting with gangsters in front of a primary school hoped to be interviewed and the video report would be released to the public.
The reporter intuitively felt that this interview would spark another heated discussion, so he gladly accepted it.
Because of the special nature of the interviewee, the reporter kindly asked whether a mosaic was needed.
Yan Xizhao: No, I have nothing to hide. I just want to tell my story...
My name is Yan Xizhao. I used to be a nurse in the operating room of a tertiary hospital and now I am an AIDS patient. I was infected with HIV not because of my immoral private life as circulated on the Internet, but because of accidental occupational exposure during an operation...
I was also cowardly when facing criminals. I believe that if I didn’t have this disease, I would cherish my life more and I might not even rush forward...
But I only had one thought at the time, that I could use my illness and my special physique to put fear in his heart and buy more time for the children, and it turned out that I did it.
If it happens again, I will still do the same. If his knife really stabs into my body, I will try my best to use my life to stop him from swinging the knife at the children again...
Faced with overwhelming abuse, I was confused and frightened for a time, and even wanted to give up my life. This scar is proof of that, but I ultimately did not choose to die, and I shouldn’t have died.
Because, I am not guilty, I am just sick...